Ft. Laziness & All That Chaotic Jazz

little bit of this and that

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So much I wanna do. So much I wanna explore. So many things I’m drawn to.

But what do I do if I’m also lazy?

Do it anyway!

Once in a blue moon, an idea comes to me and my creative juices can't wait to flow outside of me. I can feel it rushing through me, gushing out. So I start to document it. I never pressured myself with timelines—no, no. I think that's the cruelest thing you could do to your artistic side. I took it slow, one step at a time. Kept going slowly yet steadily for years. The results? Today, at the end of three years, I look back and say, "Damn, I did all that!" "I created it all!"

With my cooking blog on Instagram, my writer’s blog on Wix, my most recent Pinterest board, my short and sweet vlogs and so, so, so much more.

When I started with my Wix blog, I had only three scribbles written over two years. It felt incredibly insignificant. Like, who would read my blog? Why do I need a fancy website for only three scribbles? But those three scribbles meant so much more than just writing to me. They had my voice, heart and mind. I gave it my time and effort, not because someone had a job for me but because I wanted to document it.

Besides developing the website, choosing the perfect colour palette, brainstorming which categories made the cut, deciding which photos get their own spotlight, building my favourite ‘quote’ section filled with affirmations I told myself during tough times, and crafting the entire site itself. Ah! The many, many things I’ve always LOVED doing are all part of a reality now; it exists outside my mind in the form of a website. I am such a sucker for originality; everything needed to be mine. The creative power I had and the broad areas of interest that I could explore were more than just writing. Sure, at first, it had an existential crisis and even felt totally unnecessary to have a space for three scribbles, but now, three years down the line, with 14 unique scribbles on it, sectioned and everything, with audio and visual effects, it not only makes me proud of my work but also emotional on how much I have grown.

I have always wanted to contribute to the larger good. I would say that a lot growing up, just like any other kid. Baba would always encourage me. But adulthood makes you realise how small and powerless you can be in the larger spectrum of things. But then you also realise that doesn’t have to stop you. You can still contribute in smaller ways and make a difference. I came up with one such thing for my Wix blog posts, which may not interest anyone, but it matters a great deal to me. Have you noticed? I have an audio version for all my blog writing to make it more inclusive and accessible for everyone. Small steps like these make that 10-year-old me so, so, so proud. And that’s the kind of work I wanna do. The kind of impact I wanna leave. Kindness and compassion first. Obviously, I’m not trying to inspire anyone, rather, using all the inspiration around me in my work, in my service that has a long-term impact. The act of thoughtfulness - that I truly care and it shows.

I am also a little bit of a perfectionist - am I right, fellow Virgos? It’s so hard to be in our shoes, but we love it and wouldn’t have it any other way. I would constantly find myself battling between a planned execution and being spontaneous. The idea of thinking everything through, planning it out to the T on pretty stationery, and only then starting my base work, or just going with what naturally flows, has been a constant struggle. For years, I used to be the first kind of person, but I’ve had to force myself out of that habit to become more spontaneous and trust the process - SOMETIMES TOO. No, you don't have to have everything figured out. A lot of that unraveling can be done as life happens. I mean, we gotta leave room for some mystery too! If you resonate with this, please, please—oh please—take this as your sign, to take that plunge and JUST DO IT!

Because today, when I look back, I see how much I've done over the years. What once felt like “who would care, it’s one scribble” has now become a portfolio of MY creations that exists in the world because of ME! Aah, the satisfaction is uncanny. I couldn’t even explain it if I tried.

But how did it all come about in existence? Uh, that’s not nearly as exciting.

I would romanticise a routine and then completely snooze past it. I’d plan a content calendar and then vanish for two or even three months. But at the end of that, I always come back to create, to post and to build what it is today. I didn't contribute every day, maybe once a week or even once in several months. But guess what? It all adds up!

So stop thinking if you are ready, or if your every move is panned out. Just get started and the path will carve itself into something more wholesome and fulfilling than anything you’ve known.

I would eternally wonder how wholesome life would be if I did one favourite thing a day for all my life.

So much I wanna do. So much I wanna explore. So many things I’m drawn to. Now this epiphany dawns on me: I've been living in that dream all along, doing what I love doing most - CREATING! Turns out, the journey was the goal all along. Just start.

July 2025